The Infamous Intro

I'm excited about a brand new blog and unlike others I've written, I'm really going to aim for anonymity so that I can be completely free to talk!

So I guess my disclaimer (grin) should be: The facts are real, but the names have been changed to protect the innocent (ya know like my kids and stuff!! Cuz I'm not innocent).

You can call me Gee (nice to meet you)!

I'm 35, mother to two children (Brielle 12 and Brett 9). I am in my seventh year teaching high school and middle school Spanish, although am planning on making a change in the upcoming year (it's half forced and half a blessing). I married my high school sweetheart in 1995 and we just were divorced on Dec. 23, 2008. I was lucky enough to find a man who I know in my heart is my soul mate and he truly treats me with unconditional love like I've never experienced. But even soul mates and unconditional love isn't easy when combined with things like depression, bipolar, step families, exes, money issues and whatever life throws at us.

I have so many inner battles to work on and have just begun seeing a therapist again after a very long time of putting it off and telling myself that no stranger could help me. I've also just begun the journey of accepting the diagnosis of bipolar that I recieved during an out-patient hospitalization in 2006 (instead of the dx of depression which is the part of the bipolar that is considered a problem). Nobody really minds the highs, it's the lows that really hurt. My bipolar is rapid cycling -which means my moods can and do often change very extremely several times of day and often there is no logical reason for it. I'm in the process of setting up an appt. with a psychologist to have my meds changed to properly treat my condition. I'm also working on my health, trying to diet and exercise with goals of losing weight and getting of some of my scripts for blood pressure and cholesterol.

I really want to learn to love and accept me ...despite of all the flaws...
I want to love and accept myself unconditionally...

Why is it so much easier to love a friend like this than love ourselves and treat ourselves with the same compassion?....

I hope to gain some friends on this site and I'll be sure to stop by your blog if you leave me a note!